This is KJ..

Clown?

would =) be your first impression?

or would you be =O shocked?

or you would think they are =) on the outside and =( in the inside?

I was working yesterday.. at Eye on Malaysia and just to found out next that what people say about clown put up a happy face but deep inside.. as they face many problems..

hiding the fear of sadness..

doing it for the sake of money..

making people happy while they themselves are sad..

it seems sad people do make other people much happier but they ain’t happy themselves..

i ain’t that strong afterall.. yearn for love.. closeness.. and the most basic most basic need that life make things complicated through experiences..

I’m touched.. by this blog..

A journey of Faith

I’m sadden by my actions..

I’m strong in Faith.. Trust.. and Hope for the future.. For someone dear to me.. seeking for forgiveness.. seeking to blame it on me.. seeking for trust, faith and hope together.. for time isn’t infinite..

For my friends don’t know for certain, for my closest family won’t know, for you won’t know as well.. Only God’s decision rules over all matters.. 

For i might gone tomorrow..

Never to rule this earth again..

For now i must stand up..

for the one dearest to my heart..

For everyday i live..

Only for three things.. My God, My dreams, and to the ones i Love most.. You..

I’ll work.. i’ll improve.. i’ll be my dreams.. i’ll grasp every opportunity.. i’ll touch u.. i’ll Love u like never before.. I’ll be like Christ.. Loving unconditionally..  

“If you judge people, you have no time to love them”

“In this life we cannot do great things. We can only do small things with great love”

“If you want a love message to be heard, it has got to be sent out. To keep a lamp burning, we have to keep putting oil in it.”

“Intense love does not measure, it just gives.”

“It is not the magnitude of our actions but the amount of love that is put into them that matters.”

“Jesus said love one another. He didn’t say love the whole world.”

“Joy is a net of love by which you can catch souls.”

“Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless.”

“Let us always meet each other with smile, for the smile is the beginning of love.”

“Let us not be satisfied with just giving money. Money is not enough, money can be got, but they need your hearts to love them. So, spread your love everywhere you go.”

“Let us touch the dying, the poor, the lonely and the unwanted according to the graces we have received and let us not be ashamed or slow to do the humble work.”

“Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible poverty.”

“Love begins at home, and it is not how much we do… but how much love we put in that action.” 

“Love is a fruit in season at all times, and within reach of every hand.”

“One of the greatest diseases is to be nobody to anybody.”

“Spread love everywhere you go. Let no one ever come to you without leaving happier.”

“Sweetest Lord, make me appreciative of the dignity of my high vocation, and its many responsibilities. Never permit me to disgrace it by giving way to coldness, unkindness, or impatience.”

“The success of love is in the loving – it is not in the result of loving. Of course it is natural in love to want the best for the other person, but whether it turns out that way or not does not determine the value of what we have done.”

“The biggest disease today is not leprosy or tuberculosis, but rather the feeling of being unwanted.”

All quotes above are courtesy of Mother Teresa..

but this specific quote.. Spears through my heart.. it got me thinking how important u’re.. how important i’m as well..

And i thought i had tuberculosis would be the worst thing ever happened to me.. my first call was straight to Olivia Soo Ting Ting.. The 1st ever person that brought my conscience to see a Doctor was Olivia.. The 1st time i’m save by a kindred soul.. is Olivia.. The 1st person i cried on someone’s shoulder once you grab and hugged me is you Olivia.. The 1st person that save me from a lonely soul is you Olivia Soo Ting Ting.. countless.. worth isn’t the word to be used.. but Love..

I don’t want to take this life granted anymore.. i want to love and be loved.. living in a world not only us.. but all of us.. all you reading this post..
 

For i’m still wearing this ring.. just to wait indefinitely to Love ur heart again..

I. Love. You. and these 3 words.. i want to continue this journey on with you..