My current repeat forever song obsessesion..

Khalil Fong.. exceptional singer with a twist to his awesome voice..

Time..

time
some say it heals
but think carefully..
it’s actually a timed bomb..
that will prove it’s wrath with inconsiderable for what human may wait,
it’s just a dead end ahead.. for we’re timed as each step we take..
it’s unpredictable..

for now.. i’m inferior towards an entity beyond control..
only the mighty one that overlook us is able to with just a twink of his eye..
nothing physical can stop.. you can only deceive yourself if you ever turn your clock back time..

Love keep me alive? indeed.. and it kills me too.. and affection.. i wouldn’t even be here with you..
it kills me just the thought of it keeps me waiting..
patience indeed is a virtue..
but when it backfires..
would patience be a vice?

thoughts ventured into death..
but death can only be one..
that through you..
i can only reach heaven..
.
lead me..
..
shape me..
…
change me..
….
teach me..
…..
for there’s none like you..
……
complicated yet it seems so clear..
If i open my heart, it seems so clear..
if i open up my heart, it be so near to me..
i believe in you..

for my patience has only limit for one.. an eternal love..

sigh..

colours

is what i need to add to my life now..

While I’m Waiting..

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race
Even while I wait

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it’s not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve you while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting on You, Lord

“John Waller – While I’m Waiting”

Life can be as mundane as it’s much as tough.. and this song.. i guess sparks more insight on the word on being patient.. I don’t fancy any fame.. just love.. is all i hunger for..

I Love You..

Here i am..

so much to spill.. but so little time to do so..

so many people around.. but the important ones in life arent appearing much..

heart’s broken.. soul bounded.. spirit lives free..

only to find..

God’s guidance in the end of the road..

sometimes all u’ve wished for isn’t as easy as it seems to be.. especially just in living a life and be a part of surviving world that life brought to us..

so much of hatred going around.. so much of fighting.. even in the simplest thing you do somehow somewhere it’s unavoidable.. sometimes.. being as famous as u’re crowded by people around you.. but at times when you need most.. who understands you most? not any stranger.. but the ones furthest to you that with just the slightest sign of their presence brings tons of rainbows in us.. as cliche as it may be.. but to individuals of these special moments.. nothing seems to matters than just them themselves..

But nevertheless.. life isn’t just confined on a speck of negative.. thou these specks appear and reappear once in a while.. thou life sometimes seems to just filled with dirt.. sometimes these dirt appears like a black dot on a pure white paper.. and it reappears just the moment you wash it off.. but it’s totally unavoidable.. no matter how lucky u’re.. how wealthy you are.. or just how caution u’re.. they just keep coming back.. but the question here.. it’s just one speck out of the whole white paper.. why don’t look at life outside of the small speck of life..

it may take just a moment.. or some might take longer.. but individuality makes us unique right? and definitely each road is different..

but there’s one path i’m willing to pour everything i have.. and endlessly.. this path had shown me countless mercy alongside with times of grace and fiery hell suffering roads just for me to learn more..

and all these just to show myself that..

I’m not who i was..

I’ve been through that shoebox of pictures recently.. and this song came by to me again.. and replaying it just bring my inner fire to just lit up.. and consequent smiles of who i was.. and what life had brought me.. and what life has it now..

Sometimes it takes more than just yourself to bring out that courage in you..

thank you dear lord..
thank you mom and dad..
thank you people around me..
and also thank you for that special someone that possibly need some words of encouragement..
sometimes havin more isn’t as happy than just havin that niche curb of cheesecake you might find somewhere.. somehow..

i Love you.. is a single entity.. loving you all.. it’s contagious..

Makan Makan bersama KJ

found this video of me since a long time ago.. makan-ing with Mr Teo Xianjin the famous photographer.. i mean underwater photographer.. hahaha =P they burger betul.. i was craving for lotsa food at tat time and we went on makan spree for a whole long makan.. hahaha =P and making stupid things around.. with me around was Xianjin, Rachel (da Rock chiq) and Kingsley (the emo rocker) as well..

dang random.. HAHAHAHA =P

An End to a new beginning..

it’s the end of the year.. in fact.. the last day.. of 2008.. for hope seems so faded away.. as it’s the last.. last isn’t a good figurative speech.. for last seems all just begoned and it’s the single last hope u’ve left.. last chance.. or perhaps today might be the last day you lived your life.. and your life seems to depend on it.. a last hope with a word starts with a letter F.. it’s called Faith.. you don’t need to hope for faith to come to you.. for faith will find and comfort you in times you needed most.. when all hopes seems faded away.. faith prevails.. and all lives seems to depend on it.. for it’s not an evil entity.. but to depend on something when you trully understand the meaning of faith..

i will jump.. but i won’t jump into conclusions.. for you dear lord.. will lead me.. in this leap of faith..

There’s so much in this world that sometimes i wonder.. how god work.. wonders? how god work wonders in people’s life? but i guess you don’t work alone.. moreover there’s billions of people around.. trillions in total.. so for those that have faith in you.. how do you aknowledged them? i guess there’s an answer called angels.. spirit that live among us and around us.. some to harm.. but faithful ones protects and persevere.. and angels are spirits that lived around us send by god himself assigned to hit your conscience.. not to pamper you with gold and wealth.. but faith in him.. for through him.. everything works..

I have a question to ask you dear lord..

Did you.. send me an angel dear lord?

Because..

It is today.. the last day of the year.. i came back home at 31st December 3:22am after a few days never came back home.. feeling of home is definitely rewarding.. going around.. took down my sugar gliders.. feed them and settle down on the sofa.. and sad enough it’s my resting ground too.. burden for the night came settled down where i spotted this envelope encased with my name.. it’s weight 0.41kg and apparantly it’s hand written with my name on it.. not any pay-up-your-bills letters but it was taken attention to be written on the piece of envelope and was released by the customs on the 23th of December by Malaysian customs which took a long time to arrive to Ampang from KLIA huh? Nevertheless address was written properly with a sense of care i felt in the way it was written on the envelope.. it was from a distances that only birds can reach in a short time and it’s been somewhile since i last gotten a letter from abroad.. the land of the biggest marsupials as it’s written behind the envelope.. Glad it arrived despite the numbers of mails that it’s shuffled around from the masses.. It was dark when i opened up the envelope as i’m lazy to turn on the lights and i’ve always dislike the flickers from a flourecent light.. what’s inside lies a card with my favourite colour.. Blue.. light blue to be exact.. that comes with lots and lotsa of lots and lots and LOTS and LOTS and ‘HIGHLIGHTED IN CAPS’ LOTS of L _ _ _… it says.. warmth is the feeling i felt in an after rain atmosphere..

Are you.. the one that send me an angel dear lord?

who’s this angel dear lord?

for i’m yet to know but..

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more..

..

to come..

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i’m waiting..

LoL ROTFL! LMAO! ROTLMAO!

you guyz must go to http://www.eddyhan.com/ and check out the 1st post la.. HAHAHA can’t believe he put in my conversation with him also.. HAHAHA LMMMMMAAAAAAOOOOO! i laugh till i cried la.. HAHAHA yes.. i luahgt.. i mean laugh till i cried.. hahaha i can’t even type porprely now.. HAHAHA

The Cornicles of May..

It’s an outdated post that a lot of people has been bugging me for.. even all the way from the States.. this particular fella had been bugging me for the pics.. =P sori la joh ok? now here we have.. the series.. of pics.. the corny ones.. =P

Mayday strikes when you gather a bunch of people for a free wine session(thanks to Palate Palatte for the ang pow draw) with an unlimited PoPcorn supply..

so there goes.. a free-fine-wine session..
Rm 100 Wine..

Main Course – Rm 30+

apart from myself.. we have

Alberto Carlos

Olly n Pet Sugar Glider

Mr Teo XJ. yang halfway drunk after a few cups of wine.. =P

And Miss sudah balik US. Jolin Kwok

So after Dinner session.. we chit chat.. tok kok.. and we start eating 2 different flavor of corn-freshly-popped from oven..

Let the corns start rolling..Digg in!

These popcorns from Palate Pallate is totally wicked.. they put these some sorta kinda flavor that would spark different emotions.. and reactions.. really extraordinary.. not like the ones u find in cinemas.. unlike the dodgy ones from TGV.. =P They don’t contain any sugar.. nor caramel! but yet.. they have almost the similar effect as space cakes.. =P

So we basically share our love of popcorn(palate pallate copyright =P) with our fellow attendees.. dun get high urself..

Jolin decided to spike our drinks with corn because we refuse to be hand-fed..

Jolin’s spike really made us addicted la.. with her wicked smile of victory in hand.. we dig in MORE n MORE! into the space of bottomless popcorn refills.. bankrupt la palate..

Jolin being kiasu.. she stuff and stuff more and more corns without realizing the side effects of corns and Australian wine.. she dwell into the unknown space.. of.. camwhoreness.. =P giving a series of mixed feeling.. Thou shall beware to bottomless corns from palate palatte.. as thou corns might contain substance that will make you go..

Excited..

Cheeky..

Horrified..

contended.. some sort of a halucination of er..Rich..of corns

OMG-ness

you tend to give kisses to corns as well..

you dipped your dirty fingers into corn so that people won’t eat it.. ish.. desperate measures..

Evil as well..instead of givin apples in the story of sleeping beauty..
ngeik ngeik ngeik..

Xianjin found Corn dunking a new interesting sport yet to be discovered by the masses..

then we scout around the environment to find more possibilities that would feed our popcorn manic.. =P

we found snakes and ladder set! yippeee.. so what do we do with it? to cater a crowd of 4 people.. we decided to play..

and cornudo.. without the L.. a game based on the smallest corns and the biggest one to differentiate your players..

Corny game in progress.. =P

muahahaha! =P

Losers have to bottoms-up cups of Corn..

Jolin continues spiking drinks after all those rounds of bottomless corns.. lmao..
so here u go jolin! your corny post.. =P

The Mac Revolution..

First and foremost!
thanks shaz for making me his photo slave for his event! =) that way.. i get free food.. in exchange for photos.. =P hehehe.. and oh! free knowledge of the tech world as well! =)

it’s been very tempting for a number of years for me to switch system to a mac.. i’ve also absurdly know darn a lot about Mac systems and their OS.. but never get to own one.. no money punya pasal la.. =P

let the pictures do the talking.. shall we..

The Son.. Mother.. and Father..

Illuminated Keyboard!

MAC CRASH TEST! hahaha =P and also testing the 4 fingers swap..

MBP!

Ambient sensor located next to iSight only..

New Battery interface.. awesome! can change Hard Disk anytime!

the instructions

Sleep indicator.. and the Infrared sensor..

i want one too..

Thanks shaz for bringing me to this awesomeness press conference! =)

hehe.. =P This is KJ!

Anyway.. the awesome nvidia graphic card for macbook and double nvidia graphic card for macbook pro’s for needs of saving battery and boost graphic in times when we only need to! same motherboard.. 2.8 core 2 duo max performance.. and glossy screen.. and i would say i like the black sides.. cause it makes me more easy to edit pictures in the dark and in a dark box.. better calibration.. black keyboard.. but illuminated at night..

Cons? when i come home from yam char k? haha =P